A Message

Hmm. I checked my fetlife. And I had a message. He's younger than me. But. He is cute. (Which no one is cute to me, ever.) Really tired of looking at my bae and then thinking all of a sudden "You are one ugly [censored.]" I deserve better, someone that I think is attractive.
He wants to be dominated. "Dominate the fuck out of me," He says. Well, I'm wondering, mostly, just playing. Thinking. Doesn't have to be serious, yet. Because I don't want to just screw some random person. How would I feel about this. Ugh I'm such a hyprocrite. A guy having one of those. I wish I could be more open minded. My family imposed a lot of values on me...that I don't agree with. One of my family members said I shouldn't be having sex, HA, before you flip and think something is wrong with me, it has something to do with women supposed to be *frowns as I search for a word* Um.. Well, they speak of being married before you have sex. YEAHH RIGHT. I do not think so! That sounds kinda awful. And I can't give you a reason why. I mean I'm a pretty moral person but that's ridiculous. Well, I have a slight insensitive to work on this a bit more, besides my spirit lover. :) Who was really pushing that I learn about this. Man I might need some liquid confidence. He wants to be dressed in girly clothes? I am interested in doing this stuff real life that I write about. But. I don't even interact with my environment? I don't move. He wants to suck cock? Heh. I am learning not to laugh at people's fantasies. Even though that was what he inboxed me. Meh I don't even know this guy. 5 years younger than me. A: "Sounds like you have feelings for him, baby girl."
Brain speaking: This is not realistic.
Meh I was always disgusted thinking about guys browsing porn and dirty pictures blah blah. Having a profile on sites like those. I get super jealous. I hate to say possessive. I will love you to Death. Mwhahaha. I mean. Smiles. I can't do this at my house. What the fuck. My head is swimming with impossible things. Impossible things. "I'm possible" = "Impossible." Mehhhhh. *slams head into keyboard* I don't even know what some of these toys are. Lol. Southern family. Hah. At least I'm a bit more in the know than some folks.